Life is Hard.

I was working in a office.. shirt and tie all that bullshit. Waiting at the subway, jamming myself in to a overcrowded train, getting the inevitable delay, then showing up 10 minutes late and getting a scolding. Walk over to my windowless office, sit down, open up the PC and scroll thru all my unread e-mails (I refuse to read them on my personal time). Now it's time to work for "The Man" to ensure they make money. Your also adding a hour and a half commute both ways. The office is near colorless.... 50 shades of grey without the S&M.  I know there are a lot harder jobs out there and my heart goes out to you. But when you know what you want to be doing, when you got a dream like MLK Jr., its hard to wake up and accept this as your reality.

You know how many mornings I thought about jumping in front of that train. Not seriously but considering it lol. If I was really going to do it it would be a much more glamorized suicide... a lot more elaborate... I'm pretty sure it would involve sharks after a round of love making with some Native American Women.

This life is hard.... chase your dreams and live broke? Or do soul crushing work that gives you the house and family. But are those people happy? Are the artists happy? Fuck! Who is happy in this world? Legit happy... not drug induced... maybe people who work at Dominos. I'm pretty sure working around that amazing pizza is a better cure for depression then Prozac.


 

R.I.P

Found out I lost a friend to cancer. He honestly was one of the most genuine, kind, unselfish people I have ever met. Young too... not even 40. Didn't even have a chance to get married or have children. I sent a text telling him how good of a person he was and how I was thinking of him and hoped everything was ok..... I realized now it was sent after he died, he never saw it.

I'm not a religious guy. I've seen too much ugly to believe there's a God. If there is he's a unjust, unfair, bastard. We say the good die young. Why? Its like we are making excuses for this "God's" irrational behavior. And to be an atheist feels like you are just throwing in the towel. Life confuses me.

Good Ol' Times

Sometimes you have to go off the grid.... I'm so sick of hearing about Trump, nuclear war, poverty, crime.... I LOVE not having cable. I know I will never have it again in my life... In the future children wont even know what the hell cable television is like VHS'es.

The football playoffs have been surprisingly amazing despite having QB's 90 percent of the nation don't know. That above is my logo when I won fantasy football. I forgot how bad ass it was. So bad ass I might get drunk and get it tattooed on me... then wake up in the morning and regret it for life.

Looking back at this blog there are a plethora of pics that I totally forgot about and are fucking amazing. Let me search...

BAM! There's another! This was when I wrote a script for a Sci-Fy film called "Buggin: The Movie" starring Ving Rhames and former WWF wrestler Ahmed Johnson. No bullshit I actually wrote out scenes for this.... it was much better then that "Sharkando" bullshit.... lets dig deeper...

My backpack in Highschool. 4 of my favorite things combined to one.... Sonic, Harry Potter, The number 10, and Obama. Who the fuck am I kidding... when Obama was elected I was like 37 years old.

Big Dick is Back in Town

I am officially old....

Some Youtube Vlogger (A term I am unsure of) got in trouble for showing a hanging Japanese man in the Suicide Forest (What did he expect? I think the fucking name gives it away... it would be like naming "The Departed" -"Dicaprio catches a bullet in the head" and being surprised by it.

I checked this guys Youtube page and he has 300 million views for very poorly done rap parodies. I'm busting my ass making short films and getting 200 views if I'm lucky. I officially don't understand this new generation. They watch videos of people playing video games and commenting on them, What kind of shit is that? These D-Bag children have gotten too lazy to even push buttons on a controller. Its sickening but I think we need a N.Korea "Fatman"... at least 9/11 shook my ass up to reality.

Also these Youtube Vloggers edit there videos in such a way were they cut out every breath they take... so it is just continuous talking. You little ADD cocksuckas... I played "Final Fantasy 7" for 80 hours and had to READ all the character dialogue. None of these new generational fucks could perform such a feat. And if I'm a "Millennial" what the hell is the term for them?I say we just go with "Cocksuckas".

And I know it comes with age that you hate new music but this new shit is fucking horrible. These rappers are mumbling and talking about "kissing white boys since I was 14". If any rapper said that in the 90's he would be shot. As a child I got "DMX   - It's Dark and Hell is Hot". It had the line, "I got blood on my dick cause I fucked a corpse"..... Prison worthy today.

And god forbid you hit on a woman.... your the next Harvey Weinstein. I'm not saying hes a innocent good guy but this is turning in to a witch hunt against Straight Males. If JFK and Sinatra were alive today they would be getting life sentences. When did this society get so fucking PC? It's sickening.

I am sick of biting my tongue to try not to offend.... Big Dick is Back in Town

(EDIT: Wow, Ive been angry.. this is a venomous post)

"I, Tonya" Review

I've been hearing a ton about this movie.... mostly praise. Even Oscar talk for Margot Robbie. She is great in the role... proving to be more then a pretty face and blonde bombshell, she has range.

My problem with this film is the script. It's a dark comedy and most of the jokes fall flat or rely simply on profanity. Even the forbidden word, "cunt", gets thrown around so much it loses any impact. Tonya's Mother seems like a character whose dialogue solely consists of various curses to try and shock the audience.

The biggest flaw with this movie is every single character is despicable. They have no redeeming qualities.... they start off as pieces of shit and end as pieces of shit. They try to make Tonya sympathetic mostly by showing her get physically assaulted. It is impactful the first time but after seeing her get hit for the ninth time you become desensitized.  

I remember this incident playing out in real time. The thing I found the most interesting was the contrast between Tonya Harding (white trash, tough upbringing) and Nancy Kerrigan (americas princess, Snow White). This dichotomy to me was the most interesting part of this whole debacle. It was disappointing that Kerrigan appears for about 5 minutes total in the whole film.

They also break the fourth wall a ton in this movie and speak directly to the audience. It kind of feel very Scorsese-ish.... "Wolf of Wall Street" even. I don't feel it worked.

I will give this film a 1.5 out of 4 stars.... very disappointing.